Write it down

I miss writing.

I miss playing around with words, cuddling them up, arranging them so that they change the sense of a sentence, arouse a feeling or create pictures in front of our inner eyes. I miss this flow you get into when you just write and the ideas come to your, fly to you like pigeons you are feeding in the middle of a market place. It's easy and it's innocent, and it's freeing what was captured for a long time.

I didn't know what to write about for a long time. You know, the last months hast been extremely stressful. I've been really anxious about many things and probably I have never cried more than in the last time. It wasn't nice and it was nothing I'd write about - because who wants those depressing posts about how difficult everything is, and who wants to read sad poems all the time? Because writing those were kind of the only thing I did in the last couple of months when it came to writing.

But I figured I'll just write about writing. About how it makes you feel.

I just read an eassy I had to write years ago in school. We had to choose a book, write a summary and a characterization and things like that about it. I remember how much I enjoyed it - I chose the book "Dreamland" by Sarah Dessen, it was one of my favourite books back then. Reading the essay made me think of how much I miss writing things like that. I kind of wish someone came to me and sad "Here, write a 10 page characterization on the protagonist of this book" and then I could just dive into work and do it. Probably I'm not taking the right classes here, am I?

It also made me think how much I miss reading - obviously you will now think that I suck because who doesn't read? I used to read so much before I started uni, but now I am just spending all my time studying, watching YouTube videos, watching TV shows and being on the internet so that I barely ever read. Which is sad and which sucks. Luckily my Amazon wishlist contains a couple of books and I will definitely get some new ones when my exams are over.

I know this is all kind of random, but I hated abandoning my blog for such a long time eventhough I am not quite sure how many people even check it - but does it even matter? I never used to care how many followers I have on tumblr or on twitter or whatever, I was just doing what I liked. And here I am doing the same. As long as there are at least a couple of people reading my posts, I am a happy girl.

And I also had a really great idea how to push my blog and write more things, get myself into writing again, but it's not for now, because now I don't have the time. After exams I will fly to California for about 2 weeks and when I'm back, I'll be moving to a new place so it'll be a busy time. 

But when the new semester kicks off, I'll be back with this idea I had. So stay tuned for that :)

Now the break I took from studying became way too long and ending a post is such a difficult thing and I don't know what to write - so I'll just get a little personal and wish you, the person who was so nice and wonderful to read the whole thing, a very amazing day. I'll be back soon!